nicholas d. wolfwood (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
asipofbride) wrote2013-04-06 05:02 pm
asipofbride) wrote2013-04-06 05:02 pmIC INBOX [kaisou]
username: N.D. WOLFWOOD | ✉ ☏ 📷 |
asipofbride) wrote2013-04-06 05:02 pm
username: N.D. WOLFWOOD | ✉ ☏ 📷 |
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i need to confront him before anything else
i cant let him do what he wants in this world
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he probably will want to find me
therefore telling him im looking
might get him to open up
...maybe
...Wolfwood, I'm sorry.
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i do too
i dont know if i can be the understanding person you need around him
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or hell
even the one from yours
and he still has that determination to create a world-ending cult that he's been burning up to for the last hundred years
being understanding around him is impossible
i just
have to convince him to be benign
...
or
something
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i'm not sitting and watching it happen again.
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when i first showed up too
i didnt have even what few powers being a plant affords me
including my high strength or endurance
if kni is here fresh and new
...he likely is very weak right now
so there wont be a crater
...and i can overpower him.
[ hes not outright saying it but
he could
be very effective in a fight with kni
right now ]
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[ and wolfwood needs nothing more than for vash to say it outright ]
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he knows what he wants him to say.
his eyes squeeze shut as a feeling of nausea runs through him. ]
dont make me say it
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please
he needs him to say it
more than anything
and he knows vash won't ]
little fucker said his name is kni. does that mean anything for you. he wants to know where you are.
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as he runs
his hand is on the handle. ]
...kni
not knives
just... kni...?
...
the feeling's gotten weirder
i have a
suspicion
something's going on here
[ he doesnt want to say it ]
...if I'm right, taking up my gun might not be necessary
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i'm trying to see if he'll give me somewhere for you to look for him at
and then i'm gonna pack my shit and go find somewhere to be so you can do whatever reunion shit you need to do
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...
Wolfwood, you... aren't going to leave, are you.
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how much knives is gonna need you
what kni means versus knives
but i know you're gonna bring him with you
and i can't deal with that right this second
i can barely be a decent person to a lost asshole over text
let alone having his stupid smug face in my face
you're already fighting an uphill battle and i am gonna be an obstacle in that, not a help
so you need your house and i need to
i dont know
stay in shitpot hotel for a minute
i've got some money left over don't worry about it
[ he does not have money left over but he can probably bum some off dante if he's slick ]
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based on how he is insisting on being called kni
and that he's talking about Noman's Land not having a name...
...
I think
he might be a kid
i think this is a very small knives
which means he can be ...
i can help this time
instead of resolving to put a bullet in him
as a kid he...
it's easier to handle, things could be different.
[ he could make him understand how wonderful earth is, that humans arent playthings or disposable. ]
if you need some time then... okay. i don't have a lot of money left, otherwise id give it to you, im sorry
ill make it up to you
ill make it up to you.
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[ because now Wolfwood's going to look irrational for his anger, his fear; who's enough of a bitch to blame their whole life getting ripped to shit by a ten year old? ]
i sincerely hope
you can make it better this time
i don't know how much i believe in nurture over nature
considering how rotten i am as a person
and how heinous he is when he came from the same place you did
i really do wish you luck
don't worry about me.
i always get by
same as usual
[ run away, nicholas d wolfwood
run like the coward you are
packing up all of his newly bought clothes, his gun, and not much else because Slappy didn't deserve to get stuck in a shitpit, and neither did Rat-ions, and it was just
easier to leave the animals be
after explaining that he had to go for a little while
no matter how much Fritter whined about getting a snack
he's throwing his shit into his motorcycle's sidecar and taking off
time to get to the Auguries and see if he can sweet-talk some money out of Dante or Danteface 2 until the frozen core of misery that's eating up his guts manages to melt just a little ]
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im always ging to worry about you
doesnt matter what the situation is
i think nurture over nature works too
kni didnt have the same opportunities to see things
like i did
...
ill tell you some things
when we see each other again
okay
[ he doesnt want nico to run but
he knows this situation
...isnt ideal ]
please be safe
let me know youre okay
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trust me to keep myself together, okay
it's the one thing i'm real good at
i hope you're right spikey
sincerely
i do
... and c'mon, man
don't say anything stupid
or that you might regret
i don't
think
it'll be forever
it'll just be until i can get myself together
until you know what we're dealin' with
[ sometimes you are a simple man
and one strategy has always served you well
so you run ]
i'll let you know when i settle for the night
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its just
i feel like if im not careful, everything'll crash down
you know
...
[ there's something... profound
about being told not to say anything stupid
it rings in his heart
and hes right
nicholas is right
the world isnt ending
this
could be okay
he needs to breathe
find kni
and... ]
find dante
dante will help
thats the best thing to do right now
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not to proverbially trip you
even though i want to get my hands around your brother's neck
and take out the last ten years of my life on him
[ it's profound and a little unkind and just
blunt enough to maybe mean something
it's not forever
it's just right now
until wolfwood can make himself
not be a complete monster ]
yeah im gonna borrow money and find a hotel
you need dante more than i do so im not gonna impose on him
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what happened to you
you didnt tell me the details
but i somehow have an idea, anyway
he's done terrible things in my timeline too
just
dont ask for money, just stay with dante. What do you mean i need him 'more'?
he's our friend, both of us.
right now im gonna be dealing with
...a very small knives
im not sure if knives will even tolerate another person around us until i have him calmed down about this world
i found him
btw
he's
he's literally a child
looks maybe 10
which means he's less than two years old, probably
1/2
→ private. 2/2
he'd never stoop so low as to be involved by hand of course
but chapel the evergreen and the doctor
they'd bring kids in and they'd see what they would live through
i had s class compatibility with their regeneration drugs, so they honed that and that's why i can heal anything short of my head popping like a grape as long as i can suck down the chemicals
i grew up in a matter of months
one day i'm 8
four months later i look like this
and then we either did what the 'church' said or they'd get more of us to be better soldiers, better experiments, on and on and on for your brother's shitty goals
and they gave me a contract sayin they'd leave my orphanage alone if i delivered you on a fucking platter so i did
and then you two had it out and blew up julai
[ ... it's the most honest wolfwood has ever been about what he is. who he is. what he lost. ]
you need dante more than i do. he can do the demon thing so your hellspawn of a brother can be tamed enough not to shred people to bloody pieces. i will get by on my own.
i always get by on my own.
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because of course he does
why would he ignore it, why would he give Wolfwood ANYTHING but his undivided, focused attention
wolfwood never opens up, he fights and he bites and he barks and he dehumanizes himself to such an extreme degree, but he's never open about his pains and what created them, so there's a hollow feeling in Vash's chest and he
understands
why wolfwood is so upset about Kni being here, about what it means that he's small and wolfwood's anger can't be properly vented against the man
if he had shown up in his proper size, at the very least, with all his powers missing, Wolfwood stood a chance of putting a gun to his head and avenging every nerve that'd been pulled raw for the last few years.
The frustration that it's a child instead, well...
...Vash feels a sense of sorrow here, but...
he's also stuck with what he should do.
Kni curled up against his chest, shaking like a leaf in all his defenseless immaturity
... what does he do... ]
you aren't alone though
maybe i will need help from others
to show kni that the world isn't as cruel as he fears
...what happened to you was cruel and a perfect example as to why beings shouldn't hold power over one another
be it independents over humans, or humans over plants
noone should have to suffer like you did. noone should have grown up knowing only pain and humiliation, ruin and suffering
and i wish so solemnly that i knew what was happening
that i may have prevented it, somehow
if i knew, i would have tried to save you, wolfwood
even if i failed back then
i dont want to continue to fail
now
please
please remember you arent alone
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wolfwood has nothing but his anger and its impossible target; kni doesn't have absolution because he's still a little monster, even with his soft seagreen eyes and his horrible mother-made bowlcut
there's a moment where wolfwood could have his revenge, free of charge
and all he'd have to do is burn what's left of his principles
and the last tattered fragments of his soul
and he'd have to go through vash to do it
he really doesn't know who'd win in that showdown
rage versus love
wolfwood can at least admit that love'd win, even if it it would leave the taste of bile and his throat and iron on his tongue
it's the same taste that came up when he thought too hard about Plants, these days
and the impossible question of whether one deserved to live if they had to bleed someone else to keep doing it
humanity hadn't chosen No Man's Land
but they had chosen everything else
it makes his head hurt, though that might just be the anger and adrenaline giving way to empty, unhappy static ]
maybe not
but i'll be fine if the cards come down that way
[ vash knows wolfwood's a liar
even if he pretends he doesn't ]
i already told you not to say stupid stuff you'd regret
the last time i heard a promise like that from you
i was the one to put a bullet through the fucked up kid you'd made it to because he was trying to crush you into blood and bones and belief
i mean it, when i say i want you to be right
i want you to succeed
you deserve better
and maybe your little brat of a brother deserves better too
than whatever monsters are under his bed
you say people aren't born wrong
and i'll
believe you on that
you don't fail if i'm alone, blondie
sometimes you can only grab so many ropes
and i can tread sand for a while
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